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Thursday, December 31, 2015

A year in review and hopes for the new

Today is the last day of 2015.

Looking back on the last year, there's lots for me to be proud of, some things that I'm not so proud of, but nothing that I regret. So I'm calling this year a success. It's also easy to look back and be critical of the decisions and choices made throughout the year. Hindsight is 20/20 after all. I find I have to remind myself to remember the circumstances that I made my choices and decisions under. It's easy to be critical when you don't remember the context of making them.

Highlights of this year included: a road trip back home to PEI with Kate; discovering my snack food soulmate in Michael; getting a raise in pay; becoming more involved in Sit With Me (especially the SWM Super Squad); realizing that I am hireable as a bookkeeper and being offered a job in my chosen field (even though the timing wasn't right and I couldn't take it); reconnecting with old friends (hi Jenn!) and managing to stay in touch with friends far away (hi Bret, Katelyn and Sarah!); and having Lindsay move in with me.

In the spirit of the ending of one year and the beginning of another, here are two lists.

Things I accomplished in the last year:

  • my first foster dog was adopted and I survived the minor heartbreak it caused me
  • I transferred to a busy downtown store and built on my management skills. I didn't like it, but by God, I survived. 
  • I transferred to a smaller, more community minded store and I've succeeded beyond my expectations. 
  • Learned to love spreadsheets even more than I already did. 
  • learned that it's okay that I have fun and enjoy myself. 
  • several trips to Montreal to transport dogs to safety. 
Things I hope to accomplish in the New Year:
  • start reading for my enjoyment instead of only school related readings.
  • more writing (blogging, creative writing - just write more!).
  • take my organizational skills to the next level.
  • be more active - longer walks with the dogs!
  • spend more time in the kitchen for fun (baking and cooking for friends!). 
  • spend more time with my friends


Sunday, December 20, 2015

5/5

Things I like:
1. Granville Island Winter's Ale
2. Spontaneous sushi dates
3. Snuggles with puppies
4. Christmas lights
5. Puppies that wear party hats


Things I dislike:
1. Having to leave the pups behind for 2 weeks
2. Doing dishes
3. Getting soap in my eyes
4. When Netflix asks me if I'm still watching something
5. When the bookstore doesn't have the book I want to buy

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

When determination gets you nowhere.

Today, I experienced crushing disappointment.

I had applied for a job that I wanted more than anything else with every fibre of my being. And I had a great chance in actually being successfully hired. Alas, this morning I received the email that crushed my (current) hopes and dreams like none other. I saw this as my chance to move into what I like to call,  my 'big girl' job. But it isn't to be.

My big girl job is a job that I can be proud of announcing to a room full of strangers. I don't have to cringe and make the excuse that because I am a student it actually makes sense for me to work where I work. And it's not that I'm not... proud of my position, it's just an educated, almost 30 year old should be working someplace a little more....worthy(?). I was really looking forward to not living paycheque to paycheque (and sometimes, not even that). And while my current job has pretty great benefits, they just aren't enough to keep me from looking for other, more worthwhile workplaces.

So I guess I'll try again. I'm finding it harder and harder to struggle through life like this. I'm an university educated woman. I'm smart, I work hard and I'm kind. I just need one little break job wise.
I'll plaster the city with my resume again. I'll troll the job ads and pray that I find something worth applying for.

If you know of anyone looking to hire a university educated, hard working, kind and slightly verbose human, please send them my way. My undying gratitude will be yours.




Monday, December 14, 2015

There's Always Room for One More

Those of you that know me, know that I love dogs almost more than anything else in this world. I grew up with dogs, my parents instilled in me a love of them. So, I guess it's my parents' fault that I got involved with rescue. Although my mom will argue that an it's all because of one of my aunt's that I'm dog crazy!

My 'real' introduction to rescue was a gorgeous pitbull pup named Ruca. My good friend had 'rescued' her from a crack house. He saw her on the front porch with a man that was clearly high and not caring for her. My friend approached and complimented the guy on his pup. The exchange ended with my friend walking away with the pup, his wallet a little bit lighter. But his heart much fuller. Ruca was my introduction to pitbulls and how misunderstood they can be.

Later, when I discovered that I couldn't be without a dog any longer, my search for one began. I wanted what my friends had in Ruca - a constant companion, well trained and obedient, cuddly and goofy. And so I scoured the internet. I haunted the Kjiji and Craigslist listings, I Googled Ottawa area rescues. I wanted a dog and I didn't care about where it came from. Ideally, I wanted a pitbull pup. I hit a wall when I learned that these wonderful dogs have been banned in Ontario since 2005. Instead, I ended up with Remi.

Remi is a brindle mutt that captured my heart from the moment I spied him. His sisters galloped towards me; Remi checked me out and then casually made his way toward me. My heart belonged to him as soon as he planted his front paws on my legs. It wasn't much longer after that, that he was sitting in a friend's lap as we drove the three hours back to Ottawa.

My very own dog. Finally.

I filled my Facebook page and Instagram with pictures of him. I showed him off every chance I got. I answered questions from strangers on the street about where I got him. "What breed is he?" is a question that I got a lot. Lots of them were surprised when I said that he was from a rescue. "But he's so well behaved!" was the response I got to my answer.

Looking back, I shouldn't be surprised. Some people don't have a great perception of rescue dogs. But I am continually surprised by the questions that I field on an almost daily basis about my foster dogs. I've fostered two dogs to their adoptions. I've temped several others. And I'm fostering the most wonderful dog now, Nigel. Like my other foster dogs, he's a pit bull dog. He isn't available for adoption in Ontario, and while that's pretty terrible, I'm so thankful that I work with a rescue that values these misunderstood dogs and is willing to care for them while we find homes outside of Ontario.

When I first started fostering, many of my friends and co-workers thought I was crazy to bring an unknown dog into my home. They questioned how smart it was. What if it was sick? or vicious? or old? None of these concerned me. I was reassured by the foster coordinators that the dogs were assessed before they left the shelter and they were vetted; in short, there was nothing wrong with these dogs that love couldn't fix. Every dog that I have fostered has been a wonderful dog. There have been hiccups - Mango had allergies, Peyton needed to be housetrained, Nigel is fearful of everything - but the benefits have far outweighed the trouble.

And yes, it is tough to let them go. But every dog deserves a forever home. I cry a few tears when I get home without my foster. I crawl into bed with Remi and we cuddle. And then I get a message shortly afterwards, "We have a new foster for you!" and my heart leaps! I do a load of laundry and make sure we are prepped for the new arrival. And so the foster cycle starts again: the introduction between Remi and his new foster sibling; a walk with my new dog; a short run through of basic commands and before I know it- another wonderful dog is ready for their own home.

There is nothing wrong with rescue dogs. They aren't broken or unworthy. They deserve love and a soft bed. They deserve soft hands and cuddles on the couch; car rides to the cottage and so much more. So even though letting go means tears and a slightly bruised heart, it also means another wonderful dog gets a second chance. I'm so blessed to be part of a rescue organization. It's filled my heart and my home with love and joy and dogs.




*For more information about Sit With Me check out the website at www.sitwithme.ca. For information about the foster program email foster@sitwithme.ca. Sit With Me is a registered Canadian Charity.